i went to the surealism exsibit today at the phoniex art museum... it was fuckin rad, i also went and checked out the 19th century american and the early european exsibits that they had... they were fuckin cool too. they even had the original portrait of george washington. but i think if anybody has a chance should go check that shit out.

also they had a surealist painting called "hide and seek" i forget who painted it, it was some russian emagrant.... either way check the shit out. at first it looks like a tree, then BAMM, mass amounts of bloody-demonic babys and fetus'- what ever your opinion on it is, it shouldnt matter- cause the shits badass!

i also discovered painting this week while i was fuckin SICK! the one im workin on now is alright, its more of a color experiment but its alright. i got another one planned out already, i think ill give it to e-rock & meghan i think they'll like it.

man.... fuck women. i just dont get it, she just comes out of a 2 year relationship; but i told her straightup i didnt wanna be a rebound- i dont like to be that GUY- so then it was cool we hung out, i was a total GENTALMEN, serious too. i didnt even hold this chicks hand or grab a titty for like a week* but it was cool, shes fun to hang out with, FUCKIN HOT, and is a down' as fuck chick. ya know? so then the next weekend roles around and i meet her and everybody after work. and while we were chillin she comes up and nibbles on my ear. i was like FUCK YA! and responded accordingly, yet tastfully. anyway point being... she inesieates conntact... so next day roles around and i dont have work, i get all my shit done and wait like a kid on christmas for her to get off work. so later on we meet up shes all flirty. so then we all go to her friends house to chill. its alright, pretty fun. anyway shes still all over me at the house, fuckin rad, then we all start to watch a movie- and she takes me to the other room. i was goin HELLS YA in the back of my head. but still i showed some* restraint and it was good. ya know i didnt know if she was "vertious" still or not. so i had my fun gave her kiss and went home on time...its still goin good so far, she even text me that night to tell me that we were chillin on sunday after work......... so i get off work-late- so it was a shitty day. some shit was even happenin back w/ mama, so this WAS goin to be the highlight of my day.... anyway i show up, and she takes me outside for a second, and from her tone i thought it was goin to be a good conversation. but no. she tells me that she "really likes me, but i just got outta this relationship ya know? but i would like if we could still hangout and everything." wtf? does that mean? and the one thing that confuses me... she still calls me almost everynight, and i even heard that she still wanted to go out with me. like...wtf? im so confused. its just-like...ah- stupid, i dont know? what the fuck do guys think, cause i totally dont get whats goin on.